Inward
We do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day.
-2 Corinthians 4:16 (NIV)
Interestingly, I am feeling the exact opposite. I feel like inwardly I am wasting away, while outwardly I am looking/doing fine. Just a verse I ran across today...
Today is the LAST of the Christmas dinners, and I'm grateful for that. I'm Christmased out, and I am sick of trying to "celebrate" when I feel so gloomy. I can't figure out what to do for the New Year, and while I want to do SOMETHING, part of me wants to do nothing but sit at home and watch movies all night. Is that so bad?
I'm just ready for the New Year to be here, to start my job, to make some plans and decisions, and to get stuff done. I'm sick of trying to be happy and celebrate during a season when I feel so alone and abandoned. I feel happy at times, and completely destroyed the next, and I never know when it's going to hit me.
Continue to pray that I'm lifted up in the New Year, with my new routine ahead, and that I find some peace in my decisions about life. Thanks all......I appreciate all your support through all this.