Not the Typical Widow

I'm not sure I can handle the word "widow" at my age. If you don't already know, I'm just 24. Who's a widow at 24??? It's just so hard to FACE that word.

I think that's why I chose not just to wear black, but to wear a teal cocktail dress today. First off, it's a color I love. Kevin told me just last week, that he thought I looked pretty when I wore a new teal tshirt. So..that's another reason. Plus, I feel pretty in this dress.

I decided to look up the meaning of the color teal. It signifies emotional healing, pleasing, rich, protection, unique and expensive. Not sure about all of them...but the first one. Emotional healing. I think Kevin chose this dress for me. And I think that he's looking down from heaven and saying, she looks so beautiful. I am sure of it.

I wish I had you here to dance with in this dress, Kev. I really do. I miss you so much.