Life Part One: Widowed with No Children If you are able to attend Camp Widow in just over a week, you are in for a treat, because I'll be leading the round-table discussion on being Widowed with No Children. No, that's not really the treat - the treat is getting to connect with
Life CBS Dating Show I typically don't endorse anything unless I believe in it. But sometimes, you are presented something that is worthwhile passing along to others who might be interested. For my widow friends who are ready to date and a bit outgoing/adventurous, please click here to read information on
Life Choosing Me I can feel the surge of the wave of grief. The tide pulling me out, under, sucking the breathe out of me and causing my heart to race. This is what happens when the past overwhelms me. It has become even more difficult to deal with as my brain tries
Life He Would Be 40 When I see these pictures of Kevin, just about a month after his 36th Birthday, his last birthday on earth, I see such life. Kevin would be 40 on Saturday, April 7, 2012. It's a moment I know I, probably more than him, would have looked forward to.
Life Why "Camping" with Widows is Important & How You Can Help Update: $20 into my goal of $375 - can you help me get to $100 today? Click HERE to donate. Last August I attended my first Camp Widow with the Soaring Spirits Loss Foundation in San Diego, CA. Not only was it my first Camp Widow, but I was presenting
Life I Almost Ran Over My Neighbor Today I almost ran over my former neighbor. I was driving to work, down one of 3 roads I take to get to the highway, and the one I drove on this morning was past our old address. The apartment that we first called home after living for a couple
Life To Love Life, to Not do Business with Life Sometimes I just don't want to write about the big issues in life. It's tiring. I don't want to stir any pots. I want to just let things go. But then I read these words from my friend Erin and I know that even
Life Living for the Day, Not the Dead I know your parents are always your parents but the past two weeks have made me realize that I may have hit that point in life where we become more confidantes than parent-child. The past 3+ years haven't been exactly easy on my family. Kevin's illness
Life The Day He'll Have Been Dead Longer than I Knew Him This morning I woke up with some anxiety. This tends to happen when I think back to Kevin lately. I feel like I think more about the fact that I'm a widow than I lost a husband. Kevin feels so distant from me. I don't hear
Life EMDR My brain is on overload this morning. Friday I began therapy. Part of my therapy is the general kind, the other is something called EMDR. Most people think I'm nuts when I talk about what EMDR involves. I have decided I am not going to think too much
Family Never Knew I never knew just how alone you could feel, despite being surrounded by your family friends, and several hundred people. But tonight, I now know. And I kinda of wish I didn't. In a lot of ways, I wish I didn't know it was Christmas eve,
Holidays Last Christmas I feel a lot of emotions at this being the first Christmas without Kevin. I feel many emotions that our first Christmas together as a married couple, was also our last. It just doesn't feel fair or adequate for the feelings we felt throughout our 3+ years together
Friends ...Pretty huh? Deb and I at the beach at Asilomar on the Monterey Peninsula Deb at one of the beautiful overlooks
music Lonely Enough Today I got to visit with a friend for lunch in Hershey, and got some good Christmas shopping done there. While driving up, listening to good music, I found a new cd I purchased a month or so ago titled "A Place to Land" by Little Big Town.
Faith Beautiful.. I heard this song tonight at LCBC's christmas service..and for the life of me, I can't remember the name, but it talks about eternity, life, death, and the beauty of salvation. And I cried..and it was beautiful. I'm doing ok-I'm
Family Emotional Homecoming I am finding that this past week being home has been really emotional. It's been hitting me very hard, being home, without Kevin. Last night, while shopping at Target, I almost broke down crying in the middle of the home decorations aisle over nothing. I just wanted to
Faith Rain Wash This Away I find the job of weathermen interesting. They're paid to study the weather and forecast the future. They put percen!tages on what may/may not occur, their warnings predictions.....and I really think that 75% of the time they're wrong. Yet we still tune in
Leisure ...More This bottom picture is my favorite. In fact, I think it was my favorite spot of the entire trip. It was this beautiful clip/rock area, and it was warm, wavy and breathtakingly beautiful. I felt happy there... Tonight, not so much. I wanted to look at pictures of Kev,
Family Back To "Life" I'm back to "life", whatever I make of it at this point. I'm adjusting to being back East, and I'm actually LOVING the snow. I like it's freshness and beauty. It's refreshing. Not to mention, I'm
About Me To Here ....and here is the story of what has brought me here... Kevin and I met online just over 3 years ago. I got a mysterious email sent from my old high school personal website that only included a picture. That picture was of Kevin, and after a few emails back
Friends *yawn* I was up at 4 am this morning to be driven 1.5 hours to the airport to make sure I was there 2 hours ahead for the usual Monday morning flight rush. I am SOOOOO tired. So, I'm hanging out in one of the airport restaurants getting
Friends Washington Ok. Washington is cool. Its like Montana with a coast and more people...and more rain! I am enjoying my trip so far. I'm staying in Silverdale which is just outside of the Bangor Naval Base where Tom is stationed. So far its a low key very relaxing
Friends Don't Worry ...the last time I didn't blog for a few days, was when Kevin passed. I promise, DO NOT WORRY, it is now a few days without blogging and trust me...I am doing just fine. I have been enjoying my relaxation in Sunny California so much. The weather
Leisure California Sunshine It is so beautiful and serene here. I just love it. It is just the perfect thing for me to be doing right now. I find some moments difficult-I have found some things really trigger my memories of Kevin, and I've already stumbled across some traditions that Kev
Friends Baby Steps I am titling this blog baby steps, because I think this is my first baby step back to life. It has officially been 5 weeks, 1 day, and 4 hours since Kevin passed. I do not feel good, I do not feel great, I don't even know what
