Grateful Mentality

As I bitched about my job yesterday I realized that it was inappropriate, but I didn't care.  I wanted to complain.  I wanted to be annoyed at the situation which is out of my control  (reminder Bren, everything is out of your control).  Even when a widow friend reminded me to be grateful that I even had a job, I told her I was sick of that mentality.  I wanted to be angry about it.

And, as I shopped online last night and again this morning, purchasing last minute gifts, ordering gifts for myself, and mailing cards and gifts to friends and family,  I do know I have much for which to be grateful.  My friend Shanelle typed today "Having plenty, giving plenty".  Yeah, I do.  As I put away laundry last evening I sorted out clothing that was getting worn out, and still my closet is jam packed.  I ate leftover pizza that I had paid for on Friday.  The stack of presents to be handed out in front of my Christmas tree is nearly as tall as the tree itself.  I have plenty.  I give plenty.

Today I am going to work on that refocus.  The awareness of knowing that even though life is often "unfair" in my eyes, I still have many things that seem unfair to others.  It is all about perspective.  I have experienced great loss, but also great gain.  I am surviving, and when I don't feel like I am, I have friends and family who step up for me to make sure I feel that way again.  That's more than any person could ask for.  It IS a blessing.

What are you grateful for?  What are you struggling to see as fair?