Friends Washington Ok. Washington is cool. Its like Montana with a coast and more people...and more rain! I am enjoying my trip so far. I'm staying in Silverdale which is just outside of the Bangor Naval Base where Tom is stationed. So far its a low key very relaxing
Leisure Second Leg of the Journey I packed...and I bought stuff, and my suitcases still close!!! That doesn't mean it won't weigh more than it's supposed to, but at least it closes. I think after all my travels, my wonderful PINK (yes, pink, I'm a mary kay
Friends 1 Picture... The 1 picture I have access to so far-Deb and I on her deck. Yes, we're outside in short sleeves. Nice huh?
Friends Don't Worry ...the last time I didn't blog for a few days, was when Kevin passed. I promise, DO NOT WORRY, it is now a few days without blogging and trust me...I am doing just fine. I have been enjoying my relaxation in Sunny California so much. The weather
Leisure California Sunshine It is so beautiful and serene here. I just love it. It is just the perfect thing for me to be doing right now. I find some moments difficult-I have found some things really trigger my memories of Kevin, and I've already stumbled across some traditions that Kev
Friends Baby Steps I am titling this blog baby steps, because I think this is my first baby step back to life. It has officially been 5 weeks, 1 day, and 4 hours since Kevin passed. I do not feel good, I do not feel great, I don't even know what
Friends Learning that Life Will Go On I am slowly but surely learning that life will go on. The past 24 hours have been extremely difficult. Lots and lots of tears and emotions flooding through. I had a horrible night's sleep last night after a long cry, but woke feeling better with my cold, thankfully!
Life Morning Recuperation After a fitful night of sleep, some good cold/allergy/anti-biotics, a nice shower, and the miracle of Mary Kay cosmetics, I am doing better this morning. It's amazing how Mary Kay can make you look human again after a night of crying for hours. I feel emotionally
Life Raw I feel so raw and hurt and destroyed tonight. I feel like this blog only seems to get my bad days lately. I'm just so exhausted and sick, and my emotions are so overwhelming. I cry and cry and cry, and it just doesn't end tonight.
Holidays Loss over the Holidays Experiencing loss just before the hoiday seasons is never easy. While I had a nice thanksgiving (and as usual ate WAY too much-haha), it was still so hard to experience this holiday without Kev. I really miss him so much. I haven't been able to cry for a
Life Sick on Thanksgiving Yes, I'm sick on thanksgiving. :( This stinks. It's so much harder to stuff yourself on thanksgiving when you can't breathe! What a beautiful day though for a thankful day. I hope you all count your blessings and give thanks for the amazing things in
Friends The More I Clean... The more I clean, the more things I find to remind me of Kevin. Just the simple things...his sunglasses, batteries from his work truck, his old worktruck keys..everything. Today was pretty good-I had a fun time at Ikea with a good friend...but after that, parts of it
Life 1 Month Today is 4 weeks since Kevin's death. I am so angry and hurt. I hate cancer. I honestly hate it. I want to wage a WAR on it-who's in? Today is a tough day. It's been lots of tough nights since last week and
Family 1 Week to Go I am anxiously counting down my week until I leave on VACATION. A real, true vacation. While Kevin and I have gotten away to see family, and on weekend trips to the beach, I haven't had more than a TRUE week vacation since our honeymoon almost 2 years
Faith Chapters Last night I attended The Table community church. My friend told me was that it was dessert night, and being that I know so many people that go there, I thought it would be a nice way to re-introduce myself back into church again. Since Kevin has been sick, I
Friends ThanksGIVing I really wanted to focus on the true idea of the holidays this year. With everything that has happened, I realize just how important the REAL concept of the holidays are. Water Street Rescue Mission, especially this year, is in dire need of goods for the holiday season. Here is
Faith Brr... It's hard for me to believe that yesterday I awoke to a white world pre-Thanksgiving! I don't remember the last time that I experienced a thanksgiving week that was so cold, and white. Despite not really being ready for it, it was beautiful to see. It
Life Progress Well, I found out I'm not crazy. I'm dealing with this normal, and with strength. I was glad to hear this. It was good to just talk about the issues Im facing, the anger and general irritability I'm having and to find out, it&
Faith A Life of Reflection I have been given a life of reflection. I always thought I was reflective upon life before, but certain situations in life cause us to look at things differently, to see a new perspective. I always felt like I had true, life experience. What I had was experience on some
Life Getting the Right Tools I feel like I am definitely getting the right tools to deal with this grief. I am actually anxious for my grief counseling appt tomorrow. I've been talking about it, and around it, but not in depth. Being able to speak to an outside party about everything will
Life Hangin' In I am hanging in. I got out today with a great friend and got a chance to refocus. I have an appt to meet with grief counselor on Thursday, which I think is a step in the right direction. I am feeling less overwhelmed today, but still not "myself&
Life (Untitled) My grief has been so overwhelming the past 3 days. Today marks the 3rd week since Kevin's passing, and reality is hitting very hard. I am officially entering my 3rd day of being in a total fog, unsure of which way is up, and unbelieving. Please pray for
Faith Power of the 'Net I have now officially become one of those annoying coffee shop geeks. I type this via wi-fi at Prince Street Cafe in downtown Lancster while drinking one of my favorite cups of joe and waiting for food to arrive. I am not sure if this is a proud, welcome to
Life Emotional Chaos I am finding that my days are filled with complete and utter emotional chaos. I begin the day either feeling hopeful for the day, or sad that I'm starting the day alone. As I begin the day I either have things to look forward to, or things that
