Trusting my Decision

I realized today that I really suck at make decisions on my own.  I can't just speak out "YES" or "NO" without seeking further input on a decision.  Maybe it's because I've been known to be too spontaneous for my own good.  Or because I'm fearful that I'll make the wrong decision, so at least I can fall back on the others and feel that I sought out all the information I could at the time.

As I emailed friends and family this morning about the overwhelming feelings I have about working multiple jobs, I know deep down this is a decision I need to make, but with a plan.  Not just a career decision, but a faith decision.  Trusting not only in myself, but in something higher to guide my path even if I feel I've made the wrong decision.  Trusting that I will be provided for.  Trusting that doors will open when the timing is right.

Trust.  Decisions.  Both things I am not so good at.

I constantly worry about being assumed lazy, inadequate, or not doing enough.  I don't know what I need to do to prove to myself that I have never been any of the above?  How often do I need to open doors to feel overwhelmed before I see that I am doing all I can and beyond what I should?

How do you?