Life Happy Canada Day! Happy Canada Day to all my dear Canadian friends and family. This day last year is amongst the many that hold a tough memory for me as we enjoyed what would be one of the last few nights Kevin and I even slept in the same bed together before he
Life Happiness I gotta find happiness on my own before I can give it to anyone else. Going on a few dates was a COMPLETE failure. Back to single widowhood, and I am A-OK with that. The thought of being independent and doing my life was much more appealing than trying to
Local Update on J Squad... Julie, a dear family friend batting breast cancer is healing well from surgery and is CANCER FREE. As oncologists always are, they are being cautiously optimistic and requiring her to come back every 4 months for followups. Feeling SO glad that things are looking so good for her. Awesome :)
Life Last Day Last day of the month, thank Goodness! The new month always seems to usher in new adventures, and I am hopeful that they will be positive ones. I have entered into a whole new community here in Lancaster via Twitter. For those who don't know, Twitter is basically
Life Doing Right by Me I think part of widowhood is just figuring out what the new right is for me. Sometimes it's just being independent, and finding out what I need in this life. It's easier to do that without thinking of someone else whether it be dating or friendship
Life 8 8 months, 2 hours ago is when I watched Kevin slip away from this world. sip of my coffee 8 months, 2 hours ago is the last time Kevin heard my voice. ...Letting that all soak in. Anniversaries used to be celebratory, and now the anniversaries in my life are
Life Today.. ..Is exactly one year since Kevin came home late from work and called to tell me he wouldn't be joining me for the Lancaster city fireworks with my sister and her husband because he was too tired, too sick. His throat had been sore for several days, but
music Story Behind the song... Check out http://www.addressinthestars.com for the story behind the song I posted earlier..
Life When it Hurts, It Hurts Last night, I came home and just bawled. I haven't done that in so long. It felt good to release that, to unburden myself with this buildup of emotion after a year from when this journey to widowhood all started. The tears hold a lot more than grief.
music Address in the Stars - Caitlin & Will I stumbled across your picture today I could barely breathe The moment stopped me cold and grabbed me like a thief I dialed your number but you wouldn't be there I knew the whole time but it's still not fair I just wanted to hear your
Life Tough Day Just feeling very melancholy today. That whole "year since this all started" with Kev being sick thing is hitting me HARD. I'm imagining us sitting on the Assateague shoreline pulling in fish to fry on the bonfire for dinner and knowing it will never be again.
Life What if I Run Away? I feel an urge to escape, to hit the road, to drive on, to be free of a job, apartment, bills, commitment and just go on permanent vacation. Be a gypsy. Maybe I juts need a good vacation? I wish I had money to do that. Such is life. I
non profit My Own Blog Stalking I know I call all of YOU (yes, you) my blog stalkers, but I stalk my own blogs, or my own web things that is. Angiosarcoma tends to be the #1 stalking habit. I spent a few hours one day searching through almost every single webpage that mentioned angiosarcoma and
Life The Proposal and other things I got to see a few cool things this weekend: Les Meserables at The Fulton, and The Proposal. The Proposal was very very funny-the premise is co-workers (a canadian about to be deported) getting married to stay in the country. It humored me greatly just with what Kev & I
Life Happy Father's Day Just a HAPPY FATHER'S DAY to everyone, my father, and frankly, my parents in particular. My parents have always been so supportive of me, especially over this past year. I want to share one memory in particular of my dad: Just a few weeks before I started my
Life There Are Reasons There are reasons why there isn't a play-by-play rulebook for every scenario in life. There's the bible, which I hold true, but there is no rulebook for the game of life. I imagine if there was, we would have no journeys of faith; life would not
Life Been to "h-e-double hockey sticks" and back Deciding to venture out and look at dating again makes me feel very vulnerable. Not so much with worries of being hurt, but honestly, of what people will think/say/do. I've always been a people pleaser to a fault, and facing the possibility that people can make
music Right to Be Wrong-Joss Stone Hearing this helps me to feel just a bit empowered ... Right To Be Wrong lyrics I've got a right to be wrong My mistakes will make me strong I'm stepping out into the great unknown I'm feeling wings though I've never flown
Life Words from Kev This is what I enjoy re-reading. In a way, Kevin saying something to me long before I needed him to, but something that has helped me a lot. This was in a conversation on facebook he had with a dear friend who had lost his wife: Eventually you learn to
Local Hannah Garman For those of us in Lancaster County, you may remember the story of a little girl who just wanted Christmas cards for her last christmas. Hannah I believe was just 4 and had a childhood cancer. Hannah has now passed on.....My thoughts go out to her family.
Life Relationships are Ever Evolving It's interesting watching relationships around you change. Couples getting pregnant, inviting their first children into the world. People moving to and fro to be with the ones they love. Those deciding to walk away from love because it's become too hard. I feel like I'
music Long Journey Robert Plant & Alison Krauss lyrics Album: Raising Sand Year: 2007 Your Long Journey lyrics A.D. Watson and Rosa Lee WatsonGod's given us years of happiness here Now we must part And as the angels come and call for you The pains of grief tug at my
Life Thinking... Thinking, processing, doing pretty well right now in life. Just let these allergies leave and I'll be ok. More blogging to come-stay tuned :)
Life What is THIS? Beware: Ranting, Raving, No sense thought process ahead! Since this is like my bedside diary, this means that often my blogs are a big jumbled mess of thoughts-so that's why the title is vague. Lots o' stuff running through my head. What happens to love when it&
