Brenda Sieglitz - Brenda Lee Free (Page 32)

Brenda Sieglitz

Hangin' In

I am hanging in. I got out today with a great friend and got a chance to refocus. I have an appt to meet with grief counselor on Thursday, which I think is a step in the right direction. I am feeling less overwhelmed today, but still not "myself&

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My grief has been so overwhelming the past 3 days. Today marks the 3rd week since Kevin's passing, and reality is hitting very hard. I am officially entering my 3rd day of being in a total fog, unsure of which way is up, and unbelieving. Please pray for

Power of the 'Net

I have now officially become one of those annoying coffee shop geeks. I type this via wi-fi at Prince Street Cafe in downtown Lancster while drinking one of my favorite cups of joe and waiting for food to arrive. I am not sure if this is a proud, welcome to

Emotional Chaos

I am finding that my days are filled with complete and utter emotional chaos. I begin the day either feeling hopeful for the day, or sad that I'm starting the day alone. As I begin the day I either have things to look forward to, or things that

Not Quite Ready

I am just not quite ready to face the crowds/questions at church. I love seeing friends and family, but some things, I'm just not yet prepared for. So, instead, I spent the morning organizing my bedroom. It's the first time I've cleaned/organized

Hiking

I posted last week that I took a trail hike at the Pinnacle. This is something I used to love to do, and have lost it in the past 2 years. It's part of the reason I loved Montana so much! So, I took a few cheesy pictures

Openness

Talking to a friend online last night, I realized that I probably have an openness that most people don't. I don't have the ticker working anymore that shows me how many people look at the site each day, but so far the highest was around 2400

Technology Is Great

Technology is great isnt it? I am attempting to type this blog from this TINY TINY laptop I have. It's wonderful. Only 9" big. Insane! Not much to type, but today was nice. I am finalizing details to travel to San Fran and Seattle in early December

Grateful

Speaking to a friend about this..I just wanted to share my thoughts with you all on this process I am going through. I want you all to know how truly grateful I feel to have the life I have, and especially, to have the life I did. I was

A Calmness

Today was a very calming day, thankfully. I relaxed throughout the morning, and then joined my brother for lunch. Afterwards, I ran a few fun errands, and then chilled at home. After that, Joni stopped in for a chat, and then I headed out to Texas Roadhouse for my favorite

Where's the Bus?

I ask where's the bus, because it has to be somewhere. I literally feel like I was hit by it! Things hurt in places they're not supposed to, I'm all stuffy, I'm still exhausted (but that's been happening) despite sleeping,

Intensity

I do see things differently since this has happened, and it's not that I feel hopeless about what has happened, but the pain of loss...no thoughts of better perspective or strength right now, are getting me through this immediate pain that is so hardcore. The intensities of

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I can't believe he's really never going to be here again. I can't believe that I won't see him in the mornings I wake up...forever. I can't believe he's not going to be here to hold me

This is Just a Dream (credits to Carrie Underwood)

Verse 1 It was two weeks after the day she turned 18 all dressed in white, going to the church that night She had his box of letters in the passenger seat, six pence in her shoe something borrowed something blue and when the church doors opened up wide she

B.L. Boitson, Famous Author? Maybe Someday!

Good Morning everyone. It's amazing how my body just WAKES me up at 9:30 even if I didn't sleep well. Maybe it's time to buy some blinds for this room. We'll see... I just can't stop thinking about Kev,

Good Day?

I kind of feel guilty saying this, but overall, today was a good day. Despite not wanting to get up this morning (facing the official 2 weeks since...), I eventually got my bum moving and went to lunch with a great friend. Afterwards, I went to the interview and it

Premature Baby Steps

So today I am taking one of very few premature baby steps. I have my first interview today, with Willow Valley, for a physical therapy aide position. It's a part time, flexible, M-F position, no weekends or holidays, and it has benefits. It would be AMAZING. For those

Home Sweet Home...

I think I've had this post named Home Sweet Home before, but this time it is so much different. I got back to Lancaster after a fine flight from Winnipeg early this morning. Uneventful thankfully. I'm just going to take some time for myself tonight before

Keep it Kevin

I think this is my new mantra: Keep it Kevin. It just fits for a LOT of things, especially right now. I just want to make my life so that it would keep it Kevin. Yes, I have to make some BIG changes, and to a lot of grieving, a

Sarcoma Knows No Borders

Sarcoma is a cancer of the connective tissues, such as nerves, muscles, joints, bone, or blood vessels. It can arise anywhere in the body and is frequently hidden deep in the limbs. Between 15-20% of all children's cancers are sarcomas. However, it is more rare in adults and

Packing....

I'm packing up for my trips to Canadialand :). I am looking forward to the trip, but I know it will be impossibly difficult to be there without Kev. It's a trip that must be taken, but it's never easy. I don't think

Good Memories

Almost exactly this time last year, my siblings and some of our friends and us went to my parents cabin for a fun, fall weekend. Good times I want to share!

Fresh Start

I stole this headline from Yahoo....It read "The World Gears Up For a Fresh Start For America". I think that sounds great. Fresh starts..... This morning I am feeling much more balanced having bawled any and all tears out, slept like a baby (and for the first

So Tired

I just wanted to let you all know I'm doing a little bit better than an hour ago. Got to talk to my wonderful bro for a bit, and connect online with this amazing young widows support group. Praying I get sleep...... just a promo....VOTE TOMORROW!

Beyond the Tears

I can't remember one time throughout this entire journey that I sat down and blogged while crying. I don't know how I got through 4 months without crying while blogging, but for whatever reason, the tears always came at different times. That time is tonight though.