new loss - Brenda Lee Free (Page 2)

new loss

A collection of 42 posts

Hiking

I posted last week that I took a trail hike at the Pinnacle. This is something I used to love to do, and have lost it in the past 2 years. It's part of the reason I loved Montana so much! So, I took a few cheesy pictures

Openness

Talking to a friend online last night, I realized that I probably have an openness that most people don't. I don't have the ticker working anymore that shows me how many people look at the site each day, but so far the highest was around 2400

Grateful

Speaking to a friend about this..I just wanted to share my thoughts with you all on this process I am going through. I want you all to know how truly grateful I feel to have the life I have, and especially, to have the life I did. I was

A Calmness

Today was a very calming day, thankfully. I relaxed throughout the morning, and then joined my brother for lunch. Afterwards, I ran a few fun errands, and then chilled at home. After that, Joni stopped in for a chat, and then I headed out to Texas Roadhouse for my favorite

Where's the Bus?

I ask where's the bus, because it has to be somewhere. I literally feel like I was hit by it! Things hurt in places they're not supposed to, I'm all stuffy, I'm still exhausted (but that's been happening) despite sleeping,

Intensity

I do see things differently since this has happened, and it's not that I feel hopeless about what has happened, but the pain of loss...no thoughts of better perspective or strength right now, are getting me through this immediate pain that is so hardcore. The intensities of

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I can't believe he's really never going to be here again. I can't believe that I won't see him in the mornings I wake up...forever. I can't believe he's not going to be here to hold me

This is Just a Dream (credits to Carrie Underwood)

Verse 1 It was two weeks after the day she turned 18 all dressed in white, going to the church that night She had his box of letters in the passenger seat, six pence in her shoe something borrowed something blue and when the church doors opened up wide she

Good Day?

I kind of feel guilty saying this, but overall, today was a good day. Despite not wanting to get up this morning (facing the official 2 weeks since...), I eventually got my bum moving and went to lunch with a great friend. Afterwards, I went to the interview and it

Premature Baby Steps

So today I am taking one of very few premature baby steps. I have my first interview today, with Willow Valley, for a physical therapy aide position. It's a part time, flexible, M-F position, no weekends or holidays, and it has benefits. It would be AMAZING. For those

Home Sweet Home...

I think I've had this post named Home Sweet Home before, but this time it is so much different. I got back to Lancaster after a fine flight from Winnipeg early this morning. Uneventful thankfully. I'm just going to take some time for myself tonight before

Heading...

Home? It is, yet it isn't. Home is where the heart is..and I'm leaving a big piece here, in Lancaster, and in heaven right now. Today went very well. It was such a beautiful wake, and it was amazing to see all the friends and

Will It Work?

I am a pc. I am not a mac. I am a pc. Seriously..I love you Mom II, but your computer makes me very angry. This is probably the umpteenth time I have tried blogging in the past 24 hours, so we'll see if it FINALLY works!

Packing....

I'm packing up for my trips to Canadialand :). I am looking forward to the trip, but I know it will be impossibly difficult to be there without Kev. It's a trip that must be taken, but it's never easy. I don't think

Fresh Start

I stole this headline from Yahoo....It read "The World Gears Up For a Fresh Start For America". I think that sounds great. Fresh starts..... This morning I am feeling much more balanced having bawled any and all tears out, slept like a baby (and for the first

So Tired

I just wanted to let you all know I'm doing a little bit better than an hour ago. Got to talk to my wonderful bro for a bit, and connect online with this amazing young widows support group. Praying I get sleep...... just a promo....VOTE TOMORROW!

Beyond the Tears

I can't remember one time throughout this entire journey that I sat down and blogged while crying. I don't know how I got through 4 months without crying while blogging, but for whatever reason, the tears always came at different times. That time is tonight though.