Life - Brenda Lee Free (Page 20)

Life

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1 Week to Go

I am anxiously counting down my week until I leave on VACATION. A real, true vacation. While Kevin and I have gotten away to see family, and on weekend trips to the beach, I haven't had more than a TRUE week vacation since our honeymoon almost 2 years

Chapters

Last night I attended The Table community church. My friend told me was that it was dessert night, and being that I know so many people that go there, I thought it would be a nice way to re-introduce myself back into church again. Since Kevin has been sick, I

Brr...

It's hard for me to believe that yesterday I awoke to a white world pre-Thanksgiving! I don't remember the last time that I experienced a thanksgiving week that was so cold, and white. Despite not really being ready for it, it was beautiful to see. It

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Stormy Weather Read Mark 4:35-41 [The disciples] asked each other, "Who is this? Even the wind and the waves obey him!" -Mark 4:41 (NIV) WHILE we were on holiday at the coast with my parents, rain and strong winds forced us to stay indoors for several

FMLA

I am not one to get into big political arguments, but I came across something disturbing tonight. President Bush is planning some last minute rules before he leaves office. One of these deeply touches my heart, and it's regarding the Family and Medical Leave Act. Without this act,

So Awesome

A blog that I follow, (cfhusband.blogspot.com), posted some awesome news tonight that Tricia's lymphoma is possiby completely gone. I pray that her infection goes away, and just want to say-MIRACLES ARE AWESOME!!!

Progress

Well, I found out I'm not crazy. I'm dealing with this normal, and with strength. I was glad to hear this. It was good to just talk about the issues Im facing, the anger and general irritability I'm having and to find out, it&

A Life of Reflection

I have been given a life of reflection. I always thought I was reflective upon life before, but certain situations in life cause us to look at things differently, to see a new perspective. I always felt like I had true, life experience. What I had was experience on some

Getting the Right Tools

I feel like I am definitely getting the right tools to deal with this grief. I am actually anxious for my grief counseling appt tomorrow. I've been talking about it, and around it, but not in depth. Being able to speak to an outside party about everything will

Hangin' In

I am hanging in. I got out today with a great friend and got a chance to refocus. I have an appt to meet with grief counselor on Thursday, which I think is a step in the right direction. I am feeling less overwhelmed today, but still not "myself&

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My grief has been so overwhelming the past 3 days. Today marks the 3rd week since Kevin's passing, and reality is hitting very hard. I am officially entering my 3rd day of being in a total fog, unsure of which way is up, and unbelieving. Please pray for

Power of the 'Net

I have now officially become one of those annoying coffee shop geeks. I type this via wi-fi at Prince Street Cafe in downtown Lancster while drinking one of my favorite cups of joe and waiting for food to arrive. I am not sure if this is a proud, welcome to

Emotional Chaos

I am finding that my days are filled with complete and utter emotional chaos. I begin the day either feeling hopeful for the day, or sad that I'm starting the day alone. As I begin the day I either have things to look forward to, or things that

Not Quite Ready

I am just not quite ready to face the crowds/questions at church. I love seeing friends and family, but some things, I'm just not yet prepared for. So, instead, I spent the morning organizing my bedroom. It's the first time I've cleaned/organized

Openness

Talking to a friend online last night, I realized that I probably have an openness that most people don't. I don't have the ticker working anymore that shows me how many people look at the site each day, but so far the highest was around 2400

Grateful

Speaking to a friend about this..I just wanted to share my thoughts with you all on this process I am going through. I want you all to know how truly grateful I feel to have the life I have, and especially, to have the life I did. I was

A Calmness

Today was a very calming day, thankfully. I relaxed throughout the morning, and then joined my brother for lunch. Afterwards, I ran a few fun errands, and then chilled at home. After that, Joni stopped in for a chat, and then I headed out to Texas Roadhouse for my favorite

Where's the Bus?

I ask where's the bus, because it has to be somewhere. I literally feel like I was hit by it! Things hurt in places they're not supposed to, I'm all stuffy, I'm still exhausted (but that's been happening) despite sleeping,

Intensity

I do see things differently since this has happened, and it's not that I feel hopeless about what has happened, but the pain of loss...no thoughts of better perspective or strength right now, are getting me through this immediate pain that is so hardcore. The intensities of

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I can't believe he's really never going to be here again. I can't believe that I won't see him in the mornings I wake up...forever. I can't believe he's not going to be here to hold me

Good Day?

I kind of feel guilty saying this, but overall, today was a good day. Despite not wanting to get up this morning (facing the official 2 weeks since...), I eventually got my bum moving and went to lunch with a great friend. Afterwards, I went to the interview and it

Premature Baby Steps

So today I am taking one of very few premature baby steps. I have my first interview today, with Willow Valley, for a physical therapy aide position. It's a part time, flexible, M-F position, no weekends or holidays, and it has benefits. It would be AMAZING. For those

Home Sweet Home...

I think I've had this post named Home Sweet Home before, but this time it is so much different. I got back to Lancaster after a fine flight from Winnipeg early this morning. Uneventful thankfully. I'm just going to take some time for myself tonight before

Heading...

Home? It is, yet it isn't. Home is where the heart is..and I'm leaving a big piece here, in Lancaster, and in heaven right now. Today went very well. It was such a beautiful wake, and it was amazing to see all the friends and

Well, I just Don't Know

Just when you think you can depend on sports to lift you up...oh wait. You can't! Poor Penn State, Poor Buffalo, Poor Winnipeg. Steelers...besides Penn Manor, you're my only saving grace for this weekend in sports. And with Big Ben, I'm just