Life - Brenda Lee Free (Page 19)

Life

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Makin' It

I have survived almost the first whole week of my new job and I didn't die. Yep, I did it. I don't remember where I left off with the last blog, but I think I was feeling pessimistic about starting the first venture of my new

Messy

I feel like life is messy, and I guess that's because...it is! In just 15 hours I start the beginning of something "new" in my life. It's like the first step into my new life, it's my first time admitting I&

The First New Year

I hope you all had a wonderful, safe, FABULOUS new years eve. Mine was so much fun. My great friend Kris and I got last minute reservations at a wonderful downtown restaurant called "Effie Ophelia". Everything is cooked in this tiny kitchen, open to the seating area, and

A New Year A New Life?

I am sitting here at Lancaster Gastrointestinal waiting for my moms endoscopy and colonoscopy to be done. I am sitting just outside the room where we were first told Kev had cancer. I remember that day so vividly. The day I walked back out these doors and never was the

...Starting Life...

And so...the holidays (except for the New Year) are finally over....my vacation is done...and next week I'm back to work, back to the gym, back to life, whatever that is. I'm just not sure how I feel about it.... I'll post

Inward

We do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. -2 Corinthians 4:16 (NIV) Interestingly, I am feeling the exact opposite. I feel like inwardly I am wasting away, while outwardly I am looking/doing fine. Just a verse

It's a Raw Deal

This whole week, just everything leading up the holidays, all feels very rough and raw. I love being with friends, and family, but I'm having a hard time swallowing life without Kevin. Everytime I think of it, it just absorbs any happiness I'm feeling. It sucks!

Survival

I survived. Not my much, and many tears were shed. But I survived. Pray I can not be so depressed tomorrow.....

Never Knew

I never knew just how alone you could feel, despite being surrounded by your family friends, and several hundred people. But tonight, I now know. And I kinda of wish I didn't. In a lot of ways, I wish I didn't know it was Christmas eve,

Last Christmas

I feel a lot of emotions at this being the first Christmas without Kevin. I feel many emotions that our first Christmas together as a married couple, was also our last. It just doesn't feel fair or adequate for the feelings we felt throughout our 3+ years together

Beautiful..

I heard this song tonight at LCBC's christmas service..and for the life of me, I can't remember the name, but it talks about eternity, life, death, and the beauty of salvation. And I cried..and it was beautiful. I'm doing ok-I'm

Emotional Homecoming

I am finding that this past week being home has been really emotional. It's been hitting me very hard, being home, without Kevin. Last night, while shopping at Target, I almost broke down crying in the middle of the home decorations aisle over nothing. I just wanted to

Rain Wash This Away

I find the job of weathermen interesting. They're paid to study the weather and forecast the future. They put percen!tages on what may/may not occur, their warnings predictions.....and I really think that 75% of the time they're wrong. Yet we still tune in

Blog Stalkers a.k.a. "lurkers"

To all of you blog stalkers, also known as "lurkers", check in! I'd like to know who you are, how I know you (even if it's obvious), and leave some love-just a few words about why you have stayed committed to this blog. I

Baby Steps

I am titling this blog baby steps, because I think this is my first baby step back to life. It has officially been 5 weeks, 1 day, and 4 hours since Kevin passed. I do not feel good, I do not feel great, I don't even know what

1 Day

I am officially less than 24 hours away from my TRUE vacation. I am so excited. However, this is also the first big trip I'm taking without Kev, to a place Kev would have loved. That stings a lot, but at the same time, because we have no

Learning that Life Will Go On

I am slowly but surely learning that life will go on. The past 24 hours have been extremely difficult. Lots and lots of tears and emotions flooding through. I had a horrible night's sleep last night after a long cry, but woke feeling better with my cold, thankfully!

Morning Recuperation

After a fitful night of sleep, some good cold/allergy/anti-biotics, a nice shower, and the miracle of Mary Kay cosmetics, I am doing better this morning. It's amazing how Mary Kay can make you look human again after a night of crying for hours. I feel emotionally

Raw

I feel so raw and hurt and destroyed tonight. I feel like this blog only seems to get my bad days lately. I'm just so exhausted and sick, and my emotions are so overwhelming. I cry and cry and cry, and it just doesn't end tonight.

Loss over the Holidays

Experiencing loss just before the hoiday seasons is never easy. While I had a nice thanksgiving (and as usual ate WAY too much-haha), it was still so hard to experience this holiday without Kev. I really miss him so much. I haven't been able to cry for a

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Come What May Read Philippians 4:10-19 Paul wrote, "I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances." -Philippians 4:11 (NIV) IRWIN, my daughter's parakeet, has lived his entire life in a cage, unaware that he could have been free to live like other birds.

Sick on Thanksgiving

Yes, I'm sick on thanksgiving. :( This stinks. It's so much harder to stuff yourself on thanksgiving when you can't breathe! What a beautiful day though for a thankful day. I hope you all count your blessings and give thanks for the amazing things in

Bug?

I am offiially sick. :( Cough, can't talk, sore throat, nasal drip, the works. No fun. Heading to the dr. today-pray I can get some good meds to get me healthy before the trip.

The More I Clean...

The more I clean, the more things I find to remind me of Kevin. Just the simple things...his sunglasses, batteries from his work truck, his old worktruck keys..everything. Today was pretty good-I had a fun time at Ikea with a good friend...but after that, parts of it

1 Month

Today is 4 weeks since Kevin's death. I am so angry and hurt. I hate cancer. I honestly hate it. I want to wage a WAR on it-who's in? Today is a tough day. It's been lots of tough nights since last week and